Faith of a mustard seed

People lie, it's a fact of life and there isn't really anything I can do to stop it. Shoot even I, as much as I hate it, lie sometimes. The issues came after being lied to time after time again, when it just became easier to stop believing everything I heard, when unfulfilled promises developed into an "i'll believe it when i see it" attitude.

It became my way of life to have a little bit of doubt in everything. No harm done and nothing lost, this was a fool proof defense mechanism. Was it really fool proof if at the end of it all I end up the fool? I found myself to be the fool when i tried to live a life of faith. I've learned that faith as small as a mustard seed can move mountains but this never seemed to apply to my life. I have faith much, greater than a mustard seed but faith still never seem to be enough. I felt that with the amount of faith I had I should be able to shake the world... Why isn't the world shaking though?

Shockingly, the only way faith works is in the absence of doubt. The doubt the size of the mustard seed that followed me like a shadow negates the plethora of faith that I believed to possess. It turned out that I didn't have any faith at all. I now have to restructure my whole mentality and way of thinking to believing even without seeing, trusting even without knowing, and hoping even when in a place of discouragement.

Without faith this journey to contentment will be in vain since it is faith that make things possible.

#StillSovereign

Supporting Scriptures

Matthew 17:20
James 1:6
Matthew 8:5-13